Why is Blogspot cutting 10%-to-the-right of my pictures? It only allows the full view if I paste it in small...see below:
Monday, 15 December 2008
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Why is Blogspot cutting 10%-to-the-right of my pictures? It only allows the full view if I paste it in small...see below:
Wednesday, 10 December 2008
Which DSLR?
Below I have listed the pros and cons of €200 DSLR's (Ebay price) that are important to me personally. Each pro gets a point, each con gets a minus. I used the spec sheet and feature set, and the best camera reviews on the net (dpreview.com) to identify what the pros and cons for me might be.
I chose one camera from each manufacturer. This camera had to have an average minimum get-me price of around €200 or less (a darren-price, not necessarily the average price)...which makes it realistic for me to get one at some point.
Anything not listed in the Pros or Cons just isn't deemed important enough for me to consider. For example: poor white balance performance, moire artifacts, selectable high ISO ratings, rugged body, pixel-count etc. - these things are not worthy of a point either way.
But things like: poor high iso performance, loud shutter, no onboard flash, fast write times, dust-busters, compatibility with my current lenses etc - these things will get a plus or minus point, as they are relevant and important to me. I have also limited the superlatives to 'good' and 'poor'...for to do otherwise without actually having used the cameras myself would be innaccurate.
For anyone else reading (fancy that?), a little confirmation of what a couple of the terms might mean:
- good or poor noise management: poor means very noisy high ISO's and/or poorly-implemented noise reduction (loses too much fine detail). Good means detail is kept at high ISO's and that the noise at high ISO's is either appealing (like film grain, not coloured mottle) or is kept clean.
- good or poor resolution: good means when you zoom in on a picture, or you print big, the finer details are present and correct, and not smeared out or pixellated as poor would mean (the leaves of the tree in the background look like leaves when you zoom into them).
- long exposures poor/good: if poor, then either the camera has no dark frame subtraction (having this helps clean away hot pixels - red, green and blue - from a long exposure) or the camera software reduces the hot pixels poorly, leaving a soft image and a blotchy night sky. If the long exposure is good, it means the camera can take a clean, sharp night image without any hot pixels (effective dark frame subtraction, sometimes called noise reduction - this is not related to ISO noise).
- good or poor colour: meaning the colours are left natural and neutral, or can be vibrant enough to be appealing. If poor then the colour tones negatively do not compare well with what your eyes see.
- good or poor dynamic range: if this is listed then it means that the camera has more or less dynamic range than most other DSLR's in that price range.
- fast/slow operation: generally means how does the camera react to function settings: record review, flash power, power on/off, switching menus or shooting modes etc. Note that "fast/slow write times" to the memory card or "burst mode" pros or cons are separate entities to "fast/slow operation".
I will start with the worst performer, and work my way up.
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Samsung GX-1S (note: the only camera listed here without a dpr review, so I used the other usual suspects to gain an overview...it seems this camera is very similar or almost identical to the Pentax ist DS)
Pros:
- fast operation
Cons:
- poorly performing autofocus, especially in low light
- generally has an average image quality
Total score:
-1
Conclusion:
The quintessential average camera.
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Sigma SD-10
Pros:
- very cheap, can be had for around €100
- sensor dust protection
- fast operation
- good autofocus performance
- good resolution
Cons:
- bulb function limited to 30 seconds
- slow write times
- long exposures poor
- poor noise management
- no onboard flash
Total score:
0
Conclusion:
Might be an interesting camera to try out, an almost minus point was it only having the Sigma SA mount...
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Sony Alpha A100
Pros:
- has a "SteadyShot" function, helps stabilise the exposure with slower shutter speeds
- good resolution
- good colour
- good dynamic range
- fast write times
Cons:
- loud shutter
- poor noise management
- long exposures poor
Total score:
2
Conclusion:
Has potential - but when noise is poor, the image can really suffer.
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Pentax K100D
Pros:
- proper image stabilisation
- good resolution
- good noise management
- good autofocus performance
Cons:
- loud shutter
Total score:
3
Conclusion:
Very interesting choice, with useful plus points...and no major cons speak against it either.
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Panasonic L10
Pros:
- uses the Four-Thirds mount, for which I have the most lenses
- up to 60-second manual exposure
- live-view
- live-view further enhanced by a vari-angle LCD display
- sensor dust protection
- good resolution
- good colour
- good dynamic range
Cons:
- loud shutter
- viewfinder poor
- poor noise management
Total score:
5
Conclusion:
A good effort with lots of plusses, but viewfinder and noise are important too.
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Konica Minolta Maxxum 7D
Pros:
- has an anti-shake function which is useful for tripod and other slow shutter work
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- good viewfinder
Cons:
(no important or relevant cons)
Total score:
5
Conclusion:
An unusual and worthy choice with no major weaknesses.
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Fuji S2 Pro
Pros:
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- good autofocus performance
- fast operation
- good dynamic range
- can be had for as little as €150
Cons:
- viewfinder poor
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
An excellent camera with lots of plusses relating to the image itself.
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Nikon D70
Pros:
- onboard flash allows flash sync of 1/500
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- fast operation
- can be had for as little as €150
Cons:
(no important or relevant cons)
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
A very solid performer, literally can't go wrong with the Nikon.
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Olympus E-1
Pros:
- uses the Four-Thirds mount, for which I have the most lenses
- up to 60-second manual exposure
- good viewfinder (100% coverage, x1.1 magnification)
- sensor dust protection
- quiet shutter
- fast write times
- good colour
- can be had for as little as €130
Cons:
- poor noise management
- no onboard flash
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
It's a shame there's no flash, and that the noise is inexplicably an issue with a 5mp 18x13 sensor - but the pros this camera has are very important and useful features...the open question remains: is the image quality at least as good as the other 6-pointers?
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Canon 20D
Pros:
- manages 5 frames per second in burst mode, up to 23 frames
- fast operation (including instant power on)
- some sensor dust protection due to the nature of the CMOS sensor
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- good autofocus performance
- long exposures good
Cons:
- loud shutter
- poor sharpening algorithms (appear cheap, or fake)
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
An immense camera, the number one choice for action/sports shoot.
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And for argument's sake, let's also objectively include my own DSLR.
Olympus E-510
Pros:
- uses the Four-Thirds mount, for which I have the most lenses
- proper image stabilisation
- live-view
- sensor dust protection
- up to 60-second manual exposure
- good resolution
- long exposures good
- fast operation
- fast write times
Cons:
- poor dynamic range
- viewfinder poor
Total score:
7
Conclusion:
Ha! Mine wins!
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Overall conclusion:
I was actually surprised my own camera got the most points, but it is a mighty fine camera, and fits in this group nicely as its price is just a little over €200 (darren ebay hunting price). I do like variety tho', and will likely use one or two of the cameras listed above at some point.
As of today I have indeed effectively swapped it..for the Olympus E-1.
I think later on in 2009, I'll be tempted by the Canon.
I chose one camera from each manufacturer. This camera had to have an average minimum get-me price of around €200 or less (a darren-price, not necessarily the average price)...which makes it realistic for me to get one at some point.
Anything not listed in the Pros or Cons just isn't deemed important enough for me to consider. For example: poor white balance performance, moire artifacts, selectable high ISO ratings, rugged body, pixel-count etc. - these things are not worthy of a point either way.
But things like: poor high iso performance, loud shutter, no onboard flash, fast write times, dust-busters, compatibility with my current lenses etc - these things will get a plus or minus point, as they are relevant and important to me. I have also limited the superlatives to 'good' and 'poor'...for to do otherwise without actually having used the cameras myself would be innaccurate.
For anyone else reading (fancy that?), a little confirmation of what a couple of the terms might mean:
- good or poor noise management: poor means very noisy high ISO's and/or poorly-implemented noise reduction (loses too much fine detail). Good means detail is kept at high ISO's and that the noise at high ISO's is either appealing (like film grain, not coloured mottle) or is kept clean.
- good or poor resolution: good means when you zoom in on a picture, or you print big, the finer details are present and correct, and not smeared out or pixellated as poor would mean (the leaves of the tree in the background look like leaves when you zoom into them).
- long exposures poor/good: if poor, then either the camera has no dark frame subtraction (having this helps clean away hot pixels - red, green and blue - from a long exposure) or the camera software reduces the hot pixels poorly, leaving a soft image and a blotchy night sky. If the long exposure is good, it means the camera can take a clean, sharp night image without any hot pixels (effective dark frame subtraction, sometimes called noise reduction - this is not related to ISO noise).
- good or poor colour: meaning the colours are left natural and neutral, or can be vibrant enough to be appealing. If poor then the colour tones negatively do not compare well with what your eyes see.
- good or poor dynamic range: if this is listed then it means that the camera has more or less dynamic range than most other DSLR's in that price range.
- fast/slow operation: generally means how does the camera react to function settings: record review, flash power, power on/off, switching menus or shooting modes etc. Note that "fast/slow write times" to the memory card or "burst mode" pros or cons are separate entities to "fast/slow operation".
I will start with the worst performer, and work my way up.
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Samsung GX-1S (note: the only camera listed here without a dpr review, so I used the other usual suspects to gain an overview...it seems this camera is very similar or almost identical to the Pentax ist DS)
Pros:
- fast operation
Cons:
- poorly performing autofocus, especially in low light
- generally has an average image quality
Total score:
-1
Conclusion:
The quintessential average camera.
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Sigma SD-10
Pros:
- very cheap, can be had for around €100
- sensor dust protection
- fast operation
- good autofocus performance
- good resolution
Cons:
- bulb function limited to 30 seconds
- slow write times
- long exposures poor
- poor noise management
- no onboard flash
Total score:
0
Conclusion:
Might be an interesting camera to try out, an almost minus point was it only having the Sigma SA mount...
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Sony Alpha A100
Pros:
- has a "SteadyShot" function, helps stabilise the exposure with slower shutter speeds
- good resolution
- good colour
- good dynamic range
- fast write times
Cons:
- loud shutter
- poor noise management
- long exposures poor
Total score:
2
Conclusion:
Has potential - but when noise is poor, the image can really suffer.
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Pentax K100D
Pros:
- proper image stabilisation
- good resolution
- good noise management
- good autofocus performance
Cons:
- loud shutter
Total score:
3
Conclusion:
Very interesting choice, with useful plus points...and no major cons speak against it either.
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Panasonic L10
Pros:
- uses the Four-Thirds mount, for which I have the most lenses
- up to 60-second manual exposure
- live-view
- live-view further enhanced by a vari-angle LCD display
- sensor dust protection
- good resolution
- good colour
- good dynamic range
Cons:
- loud shutter
- viewfinder poor
- poor noise management
Total score:
5
Conclusion:
A good effort with lots of plusses, but viewfinder and noise are important too.
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Konica Minolta Maxxum 7D
Pros:
- has an anti-shake function which is useful for tripod and other slow shutter work
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- good viewfinder
Cons:
(no important or relevant cons)
Total score:
5
Conclusion:
An unusual and worthy choice with no major weaknesses.
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Fuji S2 Pro
Pros:
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- good autofocus performance
- fast operation
- good dynamic range
- can be had for as little as €150
Cons:
- viewfinder poor
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
An excellent camera with lots of plusses relating to the image itself.
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Nikon D70
Pros:
- onboard flash allows flash sync of 1/500
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- fast operation
- can be had for as little as €150
Cons:
(no important or relevant cons)
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
A very solid performer, literally can't go wrong with the Nikon.
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Olympus E-1
Pros:
- uses the Four-Thirds mount, for which I have the most lenses
- up to 60-second manual exposure
- good viewfinder (100% coverage, x1.1 magnification)
- sensor dust protection
- quiet shutter
- fast write times
- good colour
- can be had for as little as €130
Cons:
- poor noise management
- no onboard flash
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
It's a shame there's no flash, and that the noise is inexplicably an issue with a 5mp 18x13 sensor - but the pros this camera has are very important and useful features...the open question remains: is the image quality at least as good as the other 6-pointers?
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Canon 20D
Pros:
- manages 5 frames per second in burst mode, up to 23 frames
- fast operation (including instant power on)
- some sensor dust protection due to the nature of the CMOS sensor
- good noise management
- good resolution
- good colour
- good autofocus performance
- long exposures good
Cons:
- loud shutter
- poor sharpening algorithms (appear cheap, or fake)
Total score:
6
Conclusion:
An immense camera, the number one choice for action/sports shoot.
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And for argument's sake, let's also objectively include my own DSLR.
Olympus E-510
Pros:
- uses the Four-Thirds mount, for which I have the most lenses
- proper image stabilisation
- live-view
- sensor dust protection
- up to 60-second manual exposure
- good resolution
- long exposures good
- fast operation
- fast write times
Cons:
- poor dynamic range
- viewfinder poor
Total score:
7
Conclusion:
Ha! Mine wins!
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Overall conclusion:
I was actually surprised my own camera got the most points, but it is a mighty fine camera, and fits in this group nicely as its price is just a little over €200 (darren ebay hunting price). I do like variety tho', and will likely use one or two of the cameras listed above at some point.
As of today I have indeed effectively swapped it..for the Olympus E-1.
I think later on in 2009, I'll be tempted by the Canon.
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
How I photograph spiders
I'm a spiderfan so would never photograph dead or prone ones out of respect. I photograph them as naturally as possible.
For the coming Spring and Summer, I would like to try the f2 on the ZD 50mm for daylight spider shoots.
I generally go out at night armed with a torch and the camera and macro lens (currently Olympus E-510 + OM 3.5/50 macro), sometimes with a 25mm tube too, which gives me 1-1 ratio. I then look for them, mostly near bridges and water...set to f11 and 1/4 or 1/16 flash at 1/180 sync with the lens set to its minimum focussing distance of 23cm. I view through the viewfinder and use the torch on the spider to check I'm getting it sharp. I then fire away.
Some spiders dance, some are in web where the wind is swinging them about. Some stay still. Some retreat into mini-caves. Most of my spider photos are of ones that were moving, as their body positions are interesting and different to what you normally see in spider pictures.
According to my research on the web and in my own experience, some spiders are at worst temporarily stunned or disorientated after the series of flashes at such close proximities, leaving them possibly open to predators...but as it's night there are no birds about...leaving me with a fairly clear conscience for immortalising them in photographs. I try to avoid flash for most other animals, and children too.
For every 100 releases I'll have maybe 40 that are sharp, and 20 that I like enough to smooth over on Photoshop and save to library. Maybe 5 of those will get uploaded to the internet.
All my spiders are never bigger than the average fingernail, see here for more (some shot with Canon compact):
For the coming Spring and Summer, I would like to try the f2 on the ZD 50mm for daylight spider shoots.
Monday, 27 October 2008
TGL: a skunkie describes bathing in the green lake
To describe the experience is like to remembering a dream. I cannot quite recall the entire event, or know what happened in which order. Nor am I able to describe in mere words the feelings I...I felt. But try I will, for you need to know.
At the beginning of the procedure everything seems a little...distant. A bit non-happening. Then suddenly, the sensation of intense begins to crawl all over the body and soul, surrounding the entire being, like being overwhelmed by fear and cold at the exact same instant. The hands still have feeling, albeit concentrated in tingly cold sweaty fingertips...an ugly self. The rest of my body is shaking furiously, out of control. Aye...an ugly self.
An unknown sense of my mind warns of something about to happen. I never knew I could think like that, it was very strange. The attention drifted from my faltering body to the growing unease of my brain. And that is when the dismemberment happened.
...yes...that being the separation of mind and body. My mind, as well as I know it (or knew it), is not accustomed to this. Now I am surreal, for all I feel is a quiet disquiet...a still unease which is almost comfortable. What I was experiencing is perhaps best described as when the mind is soaring with absolute terror, but the body is supressing this, numbing it...so the terror absolute does not surface.
Paradox, you say? Where be my body when I am separated for it to help? My mind adapts...makes me a new body, a virtual one, one to act as a shield to my untrained mental terror...like the post-amputee and his phantom limb. I created a numbing device in place of a real physical sense. Reducing the emotion of horror to stable, tho' unbeaten it remains and thus becomes a quiet disquiet. My amazing mind understood that all feeling is one.
Understanding is not the same as readiness, however. The dismemberment I can handle, sinking into the green lake I cannot. My mind was not so amazing anymore. The fear returned: the full-blown ready to explode kind. And explode it did, creating a new breed of emotion I have no name for. Something was coming.
Something as in some ones...I deduced these were intruderous betraying ego-maniacs of the worst kind (in my normal waking life, a hated known person of mine). They were minds, like mine, floating in the lake, and they were coming at me to meld. I was fresh, and wanted, and they were rushing towards me...to meld their stronger and more horrible emotions with mine...I was helpless. I couldn't conjure any mind tricks, for I was in the lake now...in the lake you had to surrender to the meld. I knew this, but now I didn't want to anymore.
And...boom.
Boom...we melded. The most powerful adrenaline rush no mortal has ever imagined. Knowledge, understanding of the beyond, or the reality, or whatever earthly term we use...whatever it is...it is absolute meaning. I wasn't I...they weren't they...we were one. It was...it was...indescribeable.
Feeling is inconsequential, sense is all. There is no time, no matter...only awareness.
Then it began to fall apart, we, still as one, began to sense confusion...uncertainty. Who planted those intrusive treacherous ego vibes? Unease has no place with us, but why do we feel it? What is fear doing here when it should have been banished?
The meld becomes chaos, blame starts to occur, individual awareness returns...I am I again..and I am the primitive one, bringing primitive negative unwanted emotions to the lake. Get out, get off, go away!
Babblings, screamings, feelings like a swarm of hands all over me, trying to push me away...but I am stronger than we think...and I inadvertantly keep forcing my way back into the meld...thirsty for its power.
This is not good for the lake. Something happens. A fantastic, an ernormous, an unfeasibly powerful presence...a single presence, a one of many, a meld of giants...something is coming.
I whimper, or rather I feel the sensation of submissive whimpering, as do the other presences about with whom I melded...chaos is immediately silenced. An installation of a formidable quiet disquiet is erected, a wall of protection, but also of admonission. Then I sense I am being targeted...I am about to receive something...
My head explodes.
..."...too much...not enough...too much...not enough..." is all I keep from the explosion my mind was subjected to. An acid blast saving me from the lake, protecting the lake's harmony...and returning my scattered mind back to my body. I awoke by the lake, awoke as a newborn awakes for the very first time. Physical did not abandon me after all, but it took weeks before I could co-ordinate my movements, walk and talk normally, before I could think properly again.
I resolved to allow myself the luxury to sleep and dream...but no more. No going back. I dream with gratitude...and with longing, yes.
At the beginning of the procedure everything seems a little...distant. A bit non-happening. Then suddenly, the sensation of intense begins to crawl all over the body and soul, surrounding the entire being, like being overwhelmed by fear and cold at the exact same instant. The hands still have feeling, albeit concentrated in tingly cold sweaty fingertips...an ugly self. The rest of my body is shaking furiously, out of control. Aye...an ugly self.
An unknown sense of my mind warns of something about to happen. I never knew I could think like that, it was very strange. The attention drifted from my faltering body to the growing unease of my brain. And that is when the dismemberment happened.
...yes...that being the separation of mind and body. My mind, as well as I know it (or knew it), is not accustomed to this. Now I am surreal, for all I feel is a quiet disquiet...a still unease which is almost comfortable. What I was experiencing is perhaps best described as when the mind is soaring with absolute terror, but the body is supressing this, numbing it...so the terror absolute does not surface.
Paradox, you say? Where be my body when I am separated for it to help? My mind adapts...makes me a new body, a virtual one, one to act as a shield to my untrained mental terror...like the post-amputee and his phantom limb. I created a numbing device in place of a real physical sense. Reducing the emotion of horror to stable, tho' unbeaten it remains and thus becomes a quiet disquiet. My amazing mind understood that all feeling is one.
Understanding is not the same as readiness, however. The dismemberment I can handle, sinking into the green lake I cannot. My mind was not so amazing anymore. The fear returned: the full-blown ready to explode kind. And explode it did, creating a new breed of emotion I have no name for. Something was coming.
Something as in some ones...I deduced these were intruderous betraying ego-maniacs of the worst kind (in my normal waking life, a hated known person of mine). They were minds, like mine, floating in the lake, and they were coming at me to meld. I was fresh, and wanted, and they were rushing towards me...to meld their stronger and more horrible emotions with mine...I was helpless. I couldn't conjure any mind tricks, for I was in the lake now...in the lake you had to surrender to the meld. I knew this, but now I didn't want to anymore.
And...boom.
Boom...we melded. The most powerful adrenaline rush no mortal has ever imagined. Knowledge, understanding of the beyond, or the reality, or whatever earthly term we use...whatever it is...it is absolute meaning. I wasn't I...they weren't they...we were one. It was...it was...indescribeable.
Feeling is inconsequential, sense is all. There is no time, no matter...only awareness.
Then it began to fall apart, we, still as one, began to sense confusion...uncertainty. Who planted those intrusive treacherous ego vibes? Unease has no place with us, but why do we feel it? What is fear doing here when it should have been banished?
The meld becomes chaos, blame starts to occur, individual awareness returns...I am I again..and I am the primitive one, bringing primitive negative unwanted emotions to the lake. Get out, get off, go away!
Babblings, screamings, feelings like a swarm of hands all over me, trying to push me away...but I am stronger than we think...and I inadvertantly keep forcing my way back into the meld...thirsty for its power.
This is not good for the lake. Something happens. A fantastic, an ernormous, an unfeasibly powerful presence...a single presence, a one of many, a meld of giants...something is coming.
I whimper, or rather I feel the sensation of submissive whimpering, as do the other presences about with whom I melded...chaos is immediately silenced. An installation of a formidable quiet disquiet is erected, a wall of protection, but also of admonission. Then I sense I am being targeted...I am about to receive something...
My head explodes.
..."...too much...not enough...too much...not enough..." is all I keep from the explosion my mind was subjected to. An acid blast saving me from the lake, protecting the lake's harmony...and returning my scattered mind back to my body. I awoke by the lake, awoke as a newborn awakes for the very first time. Physical did not abandon me after all, but it took weeks before I could co-ordinate my movements, walk and talk normally, before I could think properly again.
I resolved to allow myself the luxury to sleep and dream...but no more. No going back. I dream with gratitude...and with longing, yes.
TGL: Zad's first encounter with Hyacinth
She felt the weight again, coarsely pressing against herself. The weight came at least once every cycle of light and dark. This one was warm and came in three - Plonk! Plonk! Two twin weights balanced on each side of her, and then...Plonk! The master weight placed on her middle. And now further, lighter weights are placed around her edges. She feels the strain being placed on her unfortunate structure, feels the energy her long strong legs are using to support this strange happening.
Woooaaahhh!!!
That happened sometimes too, although there was no pattern to it. She likened it to the rain she once used to experience. Only this rain was sticky and certainly not refreshing......yes, like the rain......when I used to be whole......
She was no longer aware; she was searching for her other selves. Perhaps existence was more pleasureable with the rest of her - aah......now I am like I just was, only smaller, still with four legs, but these are weak, yet it is me. She does not notice the large walking animal about to dethrone her. Ouch! It's bloody sitting right on top of me and I creak! She leaves this self only to find she is in the grip of another such creature and is indeed a tool of aggression towards another, smaller, walker. SSSMACK! SSSMACK! Right on its behind! She is small and thin, with a round head which is still forcefully connecting against her will. THIS IS NO FUN AT ALL!......I remember when I was whole......
She is now one and all her selves. As she used to be. She feels the real rain, my sweet, my beautiful rain. And the wind - your breath gives me my very essence, you provide my energy. She is with all her family - huge, unchanging, purposeful. A swinging animal uses her arms to play, travel and make home. This is why I exist! Tiny dot animals feast on her growth......my growth......
YEEEAAAWWWOOOHHH!!!!!!
With a jolt she comes out of her reminiscing as she is whacked full on her midriff. She screams a cry of pain, frustration, self-pity, of longing......of retribution.
......
Zad violently stubbed his toe against the wall (as only he is prone) and heavily punched the table with the bottom of his fist in retaliation. For one crazy moment he was sure the table reacted, a fearsome reaction. But no, it was plainly the momentum of his momentary anger, causing the table to jump up towards him.
Feeling satisfied, Zad went on with his day.
Woooaaahhh!!!
That happened sometimes too, although there was no pattern to it. She likened it to the rain she once used to experience. Only this rain was sticky and certainly not refreshing......yes, like the rain......when I used to be whole......
She was no longer aware; she was searching for her other selves. Perhaps existence was more pleasureable with the rest of her - aah......now I am like I just was, only smaller, still with four legs, but these are weak, yet it is me. She does not notice the large walking animal about to dethrone her. Ouch! It's bloody sitting right on top of me and I creak! She leaves this self only to find she is in the grip of another such creature and is indeed a tool of aggression towards another, smaller, walker. SSSMACK! SSSMACK! Right on its behind! She is small and thin, with a round head which is still forcefully connecting against her will. THIS IS NO FUN AT ALL!......I remember when I was whole......
She is now one and all her selves. As she used to be. She feels the real rain, my sweet, my beautiful rain. And the wind - your breath gives me my very essence, you provide my energy. She is with all her family - huge, unchanging, purposeful. A swinging animal uses her arms to play, travel and make home. This is why I exist! Tiny dot animals feast on her growth......my growth......
YEEEAAAWWWOOOHHH!!!!!!
With a jolt she comes out of her reminiscing as she is whacked full on her midriff. She screams a cry of pain, frustration, self-pity, of longing......of retribution.
......
Zad violently stubbed his toe against the wall (as only he is prone) and heavily punched the table with the bottom of his fist in retaliation. For one crazy moment he was sure the table reacted, a fearsome reaction. But no, it was plainly the momentum of his momentary anger, causing the table to jump up towards him.
Feeling satisfied, Zad went on with his day.
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